I Put That on My Family.

Yesterday we got assigned our "families" in Economics class. Of course, out of all the amazing people I know in that class and all of the people I'm comfortable with, I get put in a family with two people who I've never met before.
You can imagine how off putting that is for me, being as hella shy as I am. I don't know how I'll cope, really. I just have to do the best I can at pretending to be normal. I really don't want these two people to think I'm a major freak or something. I'm hoping that something will come out of me and I'll just be this amazingly social and funny person and be able to work with these people the way I should. I'm going to try my best not to accidentally do something really awkward and freak them out.
I'm just so bad at meeting and working with new people. They never seem to want to give me the time of day, which makes it harder to be outgoing and not shy and quiet.
Maybe this time, for some reason, I'll have fun working in this "family" and maybe even make some friends out of it. Maybe.

Mason Augustus Wheeler

Awkweird.

I really hate having to get up every morning and go to school. It's really a downer. I have to drag my butt off to a place that I hate and sit through torturous hell for six hours. If I was social and happy, I would probably love to go to school, however I can't get through one sentence without embarrassing myself.
I have all of these horrible and awkward tendencies that I wish I could just get rid of. For whatever reason, I can't just break free and be myself. Somewhere along the line all of my coolness and confidence was completely stripped away leaving this shy and awkward shell.
Everyday I try to break out of it and be happy and social, but I mostly end up failing in humiliation. I think I need some kind of counseling or therapy. I just hope that one day I'll be able to function in daily life without being a crazy freak.

Mason Augustus Wheeler

Career Goals and Choices.

The goals I set for my career are constantly changing. I've never really been sure of what exactly I would like to be when I grow up (if I grow up). I've had a lot of job ideas, but then I realize how much school it takes to achieve those goals and usually give up interest.
As of now, I am really interested in writing and grammar. People today generally don't even care how their writing is perceived by others, especially on the Internet. That has always bothered me. I have an idea in my head that I might want to go to school and study to become an English teacher. If that happened I'd like to come back to Deer Valley and teach here.
Of course, ever since I was a little boy I've always wanted to work at Disneyland. I think that would be the best job ever. Even if it is minimum wage, working in the happiest place on Earth would be the best thing that's ever happened to me. I'd get to be there everyday, I'd get to let my family and friends in free, and have the best time with them on the days that I'm not working.
I don't know. I know whatever I come up with will be the right decision for me, and I will love what I do.

Mason Augustus Wheeler

Scooby-Dooby-Doo! (Collage)

Sports and Me Don't Mix.

Sports and me don't really mix. I've never been very athletically inclined. I don't even know how to play most sports, so even watching them on TV never really interested me. People used to take me to games, but I never really had very much fun until they bought me a hot dog or something. I really want to learn how to play sports, because I think it would be cool to actually like something that everybody else likes and I wouldn't have to be embarrassed every time somebody asked me a question about sports because I don't know anything.
Anyway, the point is that I don't have an interest because nobody's ever taught me anything about sports.

Mason Augustus Wheeler

Kids In the Car.

People can do whatever they want with their kids. I don't really care. I wouldn't personally leave my children in the car if I ever had any because it's so frickin' hot in Arizona and I probably wouldn't want them to die. As far as other people go, I can't control how they treat their kids. If they think it's okay to leave them in a hot car for an extended period of time, I'm sure eventually they'll suffer the consequences and learn their lesson.

Mason Augustus Wheeler

What I Learned Yesterday.

I didn't really learn anything new yesterday. Everything we did I've done already and know how to do. I couldn't really come up with any creative ideas so everything that I made or attempted to make was really crappy and lame. Anyway, I'm pretty skilled in photoshop already because I took Graphic Design last year and I always use photoshop to get rid of all my zits before I post a picture on Facebook. So, I had fun yesterday, but as far as learning anything, I didn't.

Mason Augustus Wheeler

Two Blogs, One Day.

So, I'm writing another blog because I assume we're supposed to do one everyday and I didn't write one on Monday. But, then again, I didn't write any last week either. I don't know. I'm confused on this whole "blog"
thing.
Anyway, I don't really have anything to write about. Nothing really goes on in my life. I had an okay day today. I didn't do anything too awkward or embarrassing, which is always a plus for me. I took the bus home today for the first time this year. It was crowded as hell, which I assume is a very crowded place, and almost every seat was jammed full. Luckily, I found an empty seat, but my sister came so late that someone had already sat next to me and people snatched up all the other seats. She had nowhere to sit, so she freaked out and yelled at me in front of everyone. Some nice people scooted over so she could sit with them, so that was cool. I made a conscious decision today not to take the bus again this year unless it's an emergency and I absolutely have to.
Hmm, I guess I found something to write about after all.

Mason Augustus Wheeler

School Makes Me Sick.

School is back in session, meaning summer is over and so is my life. I always hate coming back to school more than most other kids because of my horrible shyness and my tendency to be over-the-top socially awkward. This year, these pestering problems seem to be taking a physical toll on me. When I woke up on August 15th for the first day of school I was sick to my stomach and, of course, wrote it off as nerves until the second day, when I woke up feeling the same way. It is now the second day in the second week of the semester and I have felt like throwing my guts up every single day I've woken up to go to school. I even took Thursday and Friday off last week.
It could still be nerves from having not fully settled into the swing of things yet, but I have a feeling it has something to do with the fact that I am now a senior and will be graduating this year. Maybe some part of me can sense that and just isn't ready. Who knows? I just hope that I don't have to suffer through this stomach pain every day I have to go to school this year.

Here's hoping...
Mason Augustus Wheeler